Weighing In on Weighing In: Wk 19

I’m a little disappointed in myself that I only lost 1 pound but I’ll take it. I mean, truth…confession. I had the diet of an unsupervised child at the county fair with a pocket full of cash. I had a really dark YUMMY Scottish beer, mead, several smores, and let’s not mention the handful of chips here and there. Then add me not walking as much ended up not losing as much as I hoped. This morning, I forced myself out of bed, went through my socials replying and reading while walking. Packed my lunch, started my breakfast, you know all the adult stuff.

To date, I have lost a total of 25lbs. I’m now officially at the weight when my doctor told me to watch my weight and lose 10-15lbs. I don’t think I can with Thanksgiving and Winter Nights ahead but I think I have a game plan. I’m going to be REALLY good during the week of holiday feasting THEN I will enjoy my meal without worrying myself sick. I plan on adding recipes and calculating points so I don’t do too terrible. I will also need to add more time to my walks.

My Recipe Share for the Week:

So much YUM in this soup and at 0 points it was really filling.

Rustic Ratatouille Soup

  • Eggplant (large) chopped
  • 2 zucchini (medium) chopped
  • 2 Red bell peppers chopped
  • Onion (large) chopped
  • Garlic (2 cloves) minced
  • Italian seasoning
  • 4 cups of vegetable broth
  • 26oz can of crushed tomatoes
  • salt and pepper to taste
  • Cooking spray

All you have to do is roast your veggies in the oven at 450° for 40 minutes (stirring half way through). While veggies are roasting saute onion and garlic. When the veggies are done add to the pot of onion and garlic, add broth, seasoning, and tomatoes. Let simmer and adjust seasoning accordingly. ENJOY!

25 more pounds to go. Happy Thursday everyone. My Inktober sketches will be done tonight so stay tuned 🙂

Weighing In on Weighing In: Wk 18

This past week I really learned to let go of a lot of things that were out of my control. I’m also trying to control my feelings. Not so much as to be cold but more reserved at least. My stress level is through the roof and I’m trying to take things in stride or not at all.

I’ve been completely indulgent in my diet and didn’t walk as much. I regretted every bit as I got on the scale. I didn’t go over my weekly points and counted EVERY point for my cheat days and ended up losing 2 more pounds. I have made a huge batch of Tuscan pumpkin soup and those are in the freezer on the ready and so is my chili. I even enjoyed a glass of mead. I think having the fire and family was a huge stress reliever and helped a great deal. I have lost a total of 24lbs. Even though it wasn’t and still isn’t easy I think I can do the almost 40lbs to reach my goal weight. I meet with my doctor next month to see if my goal weight is healthy for my body. It may need to be lower or higher but that’s why I made the appointment.

My staples this week have been my two fall soups (pumpkin and a 3 bean chili) but I may try to do a pumpkin chili and jalapeno poppers. I know they are going to have to be baked. That much I know. I have just been craving them and hope to recreate something that is yummy and satisfying. I’m wondering if I was exercising too much for my body to hold onto fat? Is there such a thing as doing to much exercise? I was doing almost three miles every morning now I’m down to 15 minutes a day. This upcoming week will be experimental to see if I found my magic number of exercise and food intake. 15 minutes and most of to all my weeklies or will I have to walk more or will I have to walk more and eat less again? Something has jump started my weight loss back up and wanting to know if I found my sweet spot.

Here’s to another week of trying.

Weighing In on Weighing In: Sabotage Wk 16

Just because you don’t post it doesn’t mean it’s not real…I know I didn’t post about my weigh-in yesterday but I did weigh in. Before I go into my goals and what I plan on doing differently, I would like to say that I know how to sabotage myself. I did it out of comfort and depression. Going from feeling like I can handle anything to I’m the worst person in the world.

Yes, my daughter had a miscarriage and we were all sad but she has her whole life ahead of her. I gave her my sympathy but also encouraged her to go to school. The same day that this occurred she was moving. She canceled the move back with us and instead in Texas because she told me her fiancé found a job there. I accepted that at face value and something nagged at me…why Texas? That’s when the truth came out. She found her biological father. I’m ok with that as she is doing something that I could never get him to do which is acknowledge her as his daughter. He signed his rights over because he couldn’t afford $32 a week. My father and uncle helped me while I went to work to help raise her. She literally slapped everyone in the face in the family with this move but what’s worse is she lied about it. I have completely written her off at the moment. I’m hurt and betrayed. Am I wrong? Probably but the truth is, I’m happier not worrying or thinking about her. Ultimately this is her decision and she is an adult.

With the emotional week, I did overeat, slept in, not walk, and didn’t really take care of myself. Why am I letting so much dictate my feelings? I know I can be stronger than that. I have woken up early and walked on the treadmill and making sure I eat a proper meal and stay within my points. My husband has been a HUGE support as he didn’t let me pick up smoking because of stress and compromised my wanting a HUNK of chocolate cake with a lower point chocolate chip cookie (and still stayed within my points). I ate soup that I prepared and froze and indulged in good fats in moderation (so far). I learned what self-sabotage is and trying my best to recognize this.

My Recipe of the week:
Let get real…pumpkin EVERYTHING is EVERYWHERE and even earlier this year. I see more sweet than savory recipes but it’s getting to be soup weather and played with pumpkin soup. I know…’eww’ you’re probably saying to yourself. Pumpkin is a very versatile ingredient and is REALLY good savory.
You’ll need:

  • 1 Can pumpkin (not seasoned or sweetened)
  • 1 Onion
  • 3 Cups low sodium chicken broth
  • 1 Can White Cannellini beans or your favorite white bean
  • 1 Tablespoon of chopped garlic (I used more because I love garlic)
  • Sage, salt and pepper to taste
  • Blender or food processor

Spray pot with cooking spray and sauté onion and garlic until the onion is translucent. Add pumpkin, broth, and beans. Simmer for 30 minutes. In small batches blend soup and add back into the pot and add seasoning. Simmer for 20 more minutes. It’s filling and I have added grilled chicken breast for more protein and my own toasted croutons.

Weighing In on Weighing In: Wk 15

$*%)…#%&@)()(*%#^…Just imagine me calling my bathroom scale this morning everything under the sun BUT a child of God. I was furious. I weighed in yesterday at 179lbs but this morning the scale wanted to change it’s mind like my daughters change clothes! First, it read 179lbs, then it went to 180lbs, then to 182lbs, then to 181lbs, then back to 180lbs. In my fit of rage and feelings of failure, I decided to stay with 180lbs since that number blinked twice. UGH! Then I got to thinking that with all the rain I wasn’t able to walk like I normally do so my husband got me a second-hand treadmill.

Now that I’ve talked myself out of quitting…here’s the game plan for the next week. I didn’t eat all my points like I have been doing and will make double sure that I eat all if not most of my points. I will also try and keep a balance of good quality fats and not complete junk (that Snickers was SO good). Try to get all my activity points and not check the scale daily. Oh, I also slacked on drinking more water than coffee and soda. I just don’t like the taste of it EVEN with flavor enhancers. With fall right around the corner, I’m going to try and be more creative with my coffee drinks as Starbuck’s contain astronomical points for the seasonal drinks. I want to be better prepared.

With that here are two recipes that I’m so glad that I indulged in:

Pumpkin Spice Latte:

  • 1 Tablespoon of pureed pumpkin (here I used Libby’s brand and any more than the measurement you’ll get bits at the bottom…I don’t like the pulp texture so I stick with what I listed)
  • 1/2 cup Premier Protein Vanilla shake (this was used because I wanted to get my protein in but use any low/ nonfat/plain almond types of milk)
  • 1 Tablespoon Stevia (or sugar substitute of your choice)
  • Pumpkin Spice (for garnish)
  • Strong Coffee (amount is up to you but I used ‘travel size mug’ option on my coffee pot)

Brew a really strong coffee for full latte effect. I take my coffee to work in a travel coffee mug so mine is double the regular coffee size. While that’s a brewing-warm your milk of choice, sugar substitute and pumpkin on stove whisking to froth a bit. When hot, but not burn your tastebuds hot, add to coffee and dust with pumpkin pie seasoning. This will do for the pumpkin pie latte fix that is needed and it all came out to only 2 freestyle points.

Now with cooler weather heading my way-I wanted to try something new that would satisfy my ‘need home-cooking’ craving (I would kill for a pot of buttery garlic mashed taters!). But this works:

Stuffed Bell Pepper Soup

  • 1lb of 96%/4%fat lean ground beef
  • 2 16z cans of petite diced tomatoes
  • 3 Cloves garlic-chopped
  • 2 cups reduced sodium chicken
  • 2 medium bell peppers diced
  • 1 medium onion diced
  • salt and pepper to taste

Easiest thing ever…chop and drop veggies, add meat mix thoroughly, open cans of tomatoes and pour in along with the chicken broth. Simmer until meat is done. Serving size is 1.5 cups and will serve 5 people. This was also a 2 Freestyle point per serving meal. You can eat with rice (adding points) or with toast or crackers.

Weighing In on Weighing In: Wk 14

I was extremely naughty this week with my dieting. My son had cake and pizza at his party and I partook in both. I had 2 bloody marys over the weekend which was also a big no-no. I met my activity points but barely. This is partly my fault and weather. The rain and storms were relentless and I was able to get the bulk of my exercising in before they hit but that’s about it. I gained a pound as of yesterday and as off this morning (weighed in at the same time and place) and the pound was gone.

kodiak pancake mixSo, today is a new day and new beginning week to my diet and I can correct my mistakes. I haven’t lost ALL motivation so I’m not slipping that far back. I’m human and will make mistakes. I mean…it was PIZZA! So, more exercising and be more mindful of my food choices. A great find that I was finally able to get my hands on is Kodiak pancake mix. This stuff is AMAZING and packed full of protein. 1/2 cup is only 5 points! I have heard about the elusive product and my local Wal-Mart finally started stocking it. I just hope it’s not a temporary product.

I can leave you with what I learned about myself this week. Forgive yourself and keep moving forward.

Weighing In on Weighing In: Week 13

Writing this post, I can’t believe how much can happen during a week. Last week I went to a Freyrfaxi with my husband to see and learn what Asatru was about. I have never felt so much at home. I saved all my weekly points for that night. Those people were so hospitable and there was so much food. I made my cheese and bread and brought thinking I can at least eat what I brought just in case. I worried WAY too much. Since the group asked to bring food that was personally hunted or grown or a person knew the source there was so much I could eat. It’s the mead that I didn’t know how to account for. I figure since it’s made like wine I would just double those points. I feasted on pork, fresh fruits, and vegetables, and I even indulged on a cookie. I felt a peace that I haven’t felt before.

I dreaded today…I felt like I hadn’t lost and could have possibly gained. I didn’t lose as much and I think that there are a couple of reasons why. 1- I wasn’t as active. I met my 70 activity points but one I met those I didn’t put any effort forward to go over and 2- I don’t think I ate enough of my weeklies. The problem is that a lot of the food that I ate at the gathering I had to guess about. If I was under then I wasn’t going to drop the weight like I had started doing 3 weeks ago. My weekend isn’t as active just the grocery pick up, some errands, oh! And my son’s birthday party. Yup, he’s getting older and so am I. Luckily, the bowling alley will be doing the clean up so I will be enjoying more time with my son.

This week, I lost a pound making it a total of 22 lbs. I’ll try harder next week.

What I LOVED:

I had a BUNCH of tomatoes from my garden that needed to be cooked. I threw that with some onion and garlic making a quick and chunky tomato sauce. I added tomato paste to add a little umph to the sauce which added my point. The butternut squash noodles serve as the bed of noodles that I would use for the sauce. It was so GOOD! Totally underestimated the whole veggie noodle trend. I was going to use a little parmesan but unfortunately someone in the house at it. Guys-TRY THE VEGGIE NOODLES!

Weighing In on Weighing In: Week 12

Week 12 – bringing in a total of 3 months and 21lbs gone. I really don’t see it but my husband assured me that he could tell.

I was nervous this morning getting on the scale after I indulged in the homemade bread and cheese and that was AFTER I had teeth pulled and eating/drinking soft (high) point foods. But I was SUPER excited to see that I lost another pound. It wasn’t 2 or 3 like the week before but I’ll take it. I’m hoping by the end of the year to lose at least 20 more but worried about winter. I HATE the cold and walking outside will have to stop. I do have a fear of falling on the ice as well and now need to come up with plan B and quick.

I did, however, get to try something new and will be buying in bulk and freezing for a treat during the winter. I’m a huge popcorn fan-HUGE. I love crunchy almost ANYTHING and found a recipe for roasted whole kernel code. You will need:

  • Corn on the cob (I used to whole cobs)
  • 1 tsp of olive oil
  • couple sprays of cooking spray
  • seasoning (use what you prefer and like or experiment with seasonings and lemon or lime juice)
  • parchment paper
  • cookie sheet with sides

Preheat oven to 325°. Cut the corn from the cob and place on sheet. Add olive oil, couple sprays of cooking spray, seasoning, and mix. Bake until crisp, shaking pan occasionally, about 45 minutes.

Notes
Check after 25 minutes making sure corn isn’t burning.

Also, thin corn tortillas- One is 1 point but I like to lightly spray both sides, add a little salt, and bake until crisp. These are a great alternative to tortilla chips that are high in points.

Weighing In on Weighing In: Week 9

I can’t believe it’s been 9 weeks already. Some mornings it feels like it’s been 9 years to tell you the truth. I’m happy to say that I’m not on a plateau and lost again. I was 1 freaking ounce away from losing two pounds in a week but it gives me hope for next week. I’m down 15lbs total and gave the ssprengel method another week. I have to admit that I’m hooked because it seems to have helped me over my 3-week hump of not losing weight. I don’t really feel like I’m missing out on too much of the foods I like. My husband is taking me to a festival this Saturday and I’m hoping I don’t waste ALL my weekly points trying new foods.

To help me stay on track I’ve been enjoying sweet potato toast with toasted walnuts, warm sugar-free syrup, and banana. I’ve found that a sugar-free dark chocolate pudding snack cup with fresh chopped strawberries makes a sin feel a little less evil, and if I add 1-2 extra laps to my walk I can afford a day off from walking. Hope everyone has a great Thursday and here is a low point Margarita as promised:

Just mix and pour over ice or blend. This is a versatile recipe so diet cherry 7 Up would be great with a Crystal light flavoring. OR you can purchase ‘Skinny Girl’ margarita mix for an extra point. Don’t forget to salt your rims everyone. Enjoy.

Weighing In on Weighing In: Wk 8

Last night began a frustrating time that encroached on my ‘me time’ and has extended itself until tomorrow. Some ‘once upon a time’ friends stopped by the house needing a place to crash. Normally, a good 7-day notice is required so I can work around the issue but last minute appearances are not appreciated. I now know my time is precious and want to spend it with the people I love and on things that I like to do. With that being said here is my weigh in experience (I try to keep the anxiety down but this morning frustrations all around).


Last week: 188lbs, This week: 188 lbs. I am trying the ssprengel plan (yes I’m a bit bloated right now for other reasons and I’m HOPING that’s the issue) and I felt SO guilty. So much so, I didn’t even eat all my weekly points for fear that I was going to go over somehow. I LOVED doing this. I got a ‘cheat’ day if you will but with discipline and moderation. The Whopper Jr I had was AMAZINGLY good. I enjoyed my usual foods but all in moderation. I also have to remind myself that the plan could take 6-8 days to show any loss and I’m praying to be a late bloomer. I will continue this for a month (3 more weigh-ins) to see if there is any more weight loss.

Great finds: Outshine bars (watermelon) are only 3 points and the Fudgsicles (no sugar added fudge pops) 2 for 3 points.

I will weigh myself tomorrow as it will be day 8 so this might be a part 1 and part 2.

 

Weighing In on Weighing In: WK 7

Yup, it’s Thursday meaning it’s that time of the week to weigh in. I’m super behind on EVERYTHING this morning including getting ready for work. The mushroom cheddar omelet was SO worth it! Before I go any further I would like to bring to light the subject of diet shaming. Diet shaming also goes hand in hand with fat shaming (this includes skinny individuals as well). Trust me, I already feel guilt and shame from gaining weight. I don’t need someone else to make me feel just as bad for the method of dieting I’m choosing. I know a lot of other people feel the same. Examples of diet shaming can be:

  • Should you be eating that?
  • Why don’t you eat something?
  • That diet doesn’t work…try blah blah blah diet
  • I thought you were on a diet?

The list goes on and it’s just as cruel as fat shaming. Believe me, I almost gave up on myself last week until I made a post on my personal FB page and found that there were a lot of ‘friends’ that welcomed the lengthy rant.

Instead of, ‘That diet doesn’t work, try this one,’ how about saying, ‘Keep up the great work,’ and offer support. Instead of belittling the dieter of their choice of weight loss, encourage them. My choice in the diet comes from a gastric bypass over a decade ago, medications that have a side effect of weight gain that is prescribed for my C-PTSD and attempted suicide, and my bad eating habits. I wasn’t active as I have a sit-down job and with growing kids in the house and homecooked southern meals, I needed a diet that works with me. Please be kind and supportive to individuals on their weight loss journey. Their choice of diet is personal to them just as the reason they gained weight. It’s personal.

Now with that being said and off my chest. Drum roll, please…….


For those that are just now tuning in, I’m down 2lbs! SUPER excited. It took 3 damn weeks but I lost some weight. What did I do differently? I introduced some more healthy fat into my diet. HELLO, yumminess! I maintained for 3 weeks but after some crying, feeling ashamed, questioning my diet choice (only encourage by diet shaming), almost coming to terms with accepting my weight, I stuck to my guns. I ate a little more of my weekly points, stopped (ok not completely but close) eating after 7pm and even allowed myself to enjoy a skinny margarita. Focused more on quality, not quantity allowing my meals to be a little higher in points. I earned all my fitness points and my body was allowed a day’s worth of rest.

What I’m going to do differently or not:

  • Try the ssprengel23plan or the Wendie plan
  • Have a Whopper Jr with cheese

Today, Thursday is/was my weigh in day, so it’s day 1 blue dot. Friday, day 2 blue dot. Saturday, day 3 red dot (Date night, comedy club and a burger that I haven’t had in a month!). Sunday and Monday, days 4 & 5 red dots. Tuesday and Wednesday, days 6 &7 blue dots.

I talked to a coach and some other people and said to try this because my body is used to the food and is bored. So, we’ll see. I’m also going to experiment with a margarita recipe that I know will make some people happy. Here’s to another week of trial and error. BUT, I’m more than the number that’s on the scale and I didn’t gain weight overnight so I’m not going to lose it overnight. Happy Thursday loveys…keep doing what you’re doing.

Weighing In On Weighing In: Week 6-More than a Number!

So…I officially hate the scale! Not because of the numbers it was showing. I have come to terms that those only represent data and not be as a person. I hope a lot of other people realize that too. It’s data for us to follow not to label us. I learned that through the connect group. No, I hate my scale because it can’t give the same number.

Experiment: Scale, Flooring, Tantrum

For the past couple of weeks, I have been questioning my weigh-ins, especially when it dropped 4lbs. Super excited and charged that I was making progress I still felt paranoid and uneasy. I got home and weighed myself on the carpet (the same as that morning) and it still gave me 186lbs. THEN I made the mistake or actually finding the truth (still wished I hadn’t) and it weighed me at 190lbs! WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FU&%! I checked the scale on the living room carpet, then the tile in the kitchen, then an area rug, then the back porch. The numbers that stayed consistent were the ones on the tile and wood floor at 190lbs! This is where I threw the equivalent of a toddler tantrum that just learned a new paragraph of profanity.

I calmed down and said well, I didn’t gain but didn’t lose and that’s ok because when I weighed myself before that I was on the tile. Accuracy! This morning, however, I was a little upset that I didn’t lose but didn’t gain, AGAIN! I just breathed for a few minutes and tried to figure out what is going on.

Confessions from a Fat Girl: I will be the first to admit that my eyes are bigger than my stomach so I’m more inclined to hoard points for the 53 pretzels and guacamole then to use them on a meal. I LOVE snacking! Popcorn is my kryptonite and found a brand that’s 3 points for 3 cups. Or the veggie straws that’s a satisfying 30 crunchy pieces for 3 points. Do you see where I’m going with this? I’m more focused on quantity than quality. Maybe I’m maintaining because of my snacking?  I should focus more on the quality of food and not so much on having enough point left over so I can snack. I don’t have to snack but it’s my mindset that it’s necessary. For the next week, I’m going to focus on the quality of points used and make my meals yummier. I do need to remember that I upped my duration time during my walks and could also possibly be gaining for muscle. We’ll see how next week goes.

A recipe I used a lot last week that was amazingly good:

Mock Cheesecake:

  • 1 Sugar-free vanilla pudding snack
  • 1/4 Non-fat plain greek yogurt
  • 2 Graham crackers crushed
  • Blueberries
    Mix yogurt and pudding together, add blueberries and top with crushed Grahams. YUM! And it was all for 3 points! The yogurt added the extra protein while the berries and crackers added texture and sweetness.

Weighing In On Weighing In: Week 5

This morning was a struggle from the minute I got up and I think what did it was the scale. The first thing I did when I woke up was to get on the scale. It’s weigh-in day after all. According to the scale, I didn’t gain but I didn’t lose. I realized that my hands were a little puffy and decided to get my blood moving and going for a walk. I didn’t want to. I thought what the hell am I doing maintaining and not losing? The negative thoughts just made my body feel heavier and more sluggish. I pushed through wanting to get home and get ready for the day.

I cracked open a cold one (water that is) and sat at my computer to plan out my meals and snacks for the day and write my 6-Word Story. I thought about maybe lose the low-calorie bread (1 slice for breakfast) and that would get rid of the olive oil butter. But it tastes so good and it’s a healthy fat. Then I got back on the scale and SURPRISE!


I’m down to 186lbs. This is great and makes the little sacrifices and turning down awesome food almost worth it. I said no to BBQ, cookies, peach dump cake, and angrily chewed my rabbit food in silence after ordering cheesy, gooey, oh so delicious pizza yesterday and didn’t take one bite.

The one thing that WW changed about my points is that the program lowered my weekly points from 42 to 35. I’m ok with this since I rarely dipped into them. My daily points are the same but my activity points I agreed to the raise from 64 t0 69 points. I managed to go over my points to 67 so I think if I add an evening walk 2-3 times a week I should be ok.

My favorite foods and finds so far are the premier shakes. I use the caramel shake (2FL ounces) mixed with an iced coffee concentrate and one packet of Stevia totally a 1 point iced coffee. Smart Ones Classic Favorites Ravioli Florentine at only 7 points is actually pretty good.

I consider this week a really good win. I’m going to continue what I’m doing with my foods but I’ll stop weighing myself right out of the bed on weigh-in day. Class lecture and writing on the menu tonight.

Weighing In on Weighing In: Week 4

Today is weigh in day. I made some changes and this morning a question. Now, I did a sneak peek at my progress (I have GOT to stop doing that) and seen that I was down to 189lbs. This morning I weighed before walking and it read 194lbs. Umm…wtf?! I noticed my fingers were swollen and thought maybe it was because I just woke up. I walked, got weirded out by a cop, came home, had some water and weighed in. 190lbs is what the scale gave me. Did I gain a pound? I’m not too sure because I took the scale in the bathroom and it told me 196lbs. Even bigger WTF thoughts. I will be getting a new scale as I’m beginning to think that the scale is in cahoots with my diet that tried to use my chopping skills against me earlier. No, but I will be purchasing a different scale.

PLUS side…I lost more weight! I added healthier fats back into my diet like a butter/olive oil spread (hello yummy!), found that I can snack on Rold Gold Pretzels (but now I dip in PB2 powder peanut butter adding the protein back into my snacks and yumminess), and I’m not starving myself by hoarding points. They’re there so why not eat them? I have turned down free pizza, cake, and even BBQ lunch here at the office and I’m not completely bitter just glad that I could pass it up. That means I’m learning self-control. I’ve also learned to enjoy my coffee without all the bells and whistles and drinking more water.

6/21/2018 High 5% Losing 5% of your weight is a big deal! It can improve your mood, give you better sleep, and reduce the risk of developing type 2 diabetes. Woot!

The WW app asked if I wanted to up my activity point goal to 70 and I had to turn that down. I don’t think I’m ready for that because I have so much going on. Taking care of family/house, daily painting, daily doodle (not giving those up at the moment), the Friday Fenton project (update coming tomorrow), writing class I signed up for, and my blog. I’ll try to do it on my own without it counting first.

Totally happy with my results so far but cautiously aware that there will be bumps in the road. Here’s to hoping for another successful week leading up to weigh in day.

Happy Solstice everyone.

 

 

Weighing In on Weighing In: Week 2

So, it’s week two of my diet. I should be embarrassed but I’m posting anyways. I have not strayed from points, haven’t cheated, and have continued to walk daily. In a previous post, I mentioned that I gained 2 lbs and thought I had been doing everything right. I was concerned with how I was doing the program and was given a little advice to try.

What I’m doing: Eating below my daily points.
Suggestion: Eat ALL the dailies. Your body feels like it’s starving so try fueling it.

What I’m doing: Not dipping into my weekly points. (I’ll hoard them but not use them, I don’t know why)
Suggestion: Eat some weeklies. It’s ok they are there for a reason.

Some other suggestions are that my walks are putting on muscle which weighs more than fat, water bloat from salt intake, and drink water. I’m drinking water but I do love my salt. I’m going to try the eating techniques. If that doesn’t work I’ll keep trying but at least I lost what I gained. So, I’ll try harder and hope that next week’s weigh-in experience is a little better.  It’s ok, it’s ok, it’s ok. You’re in it for the long haul (just wish the distance wasn’t as long).

As for the recipes I tried, I didn’t get to take pictures but one of my favorites was the Slow Cooker 3 bean chili, blueberry sauce and yogurt, and chicken with veggies on a corn tortilla. The awesome find would have to be the chicken and apple sausage. 2 points for one link and it filled me up with scrambled eggs.

Weighing in on Weighing: Week 1

Week 1

Today is weigh in day. It’s been a week and wanted to see the average 2.5lbs drop off. I’ve been working really hard on making sure I walk each day and count my points. This has been difficult since I have to basically cook two different meals. One for my family and one for myself. Mashing taters and adding all the butter and milk last night-I almost drooled right in the pot! I didn’t taste-test, I didn’t steal a bite although I was naughty. My daughter was grabbing a handful of those amazing Classic Lay’s potato chips and I scanned the bag. 5 points for 15 chips! I ate 3 and counted a point. I couldn’t help it. But this morning, weighing myself I learned that I dropped 7lbs.

The Week (from Thursday to Thursday)

The changes I’ve made; I have NOT been happy with! Turkey bacon is a mockery of the real deal http://www.hark.com/clips/tsvyrktkwq-how-do-you-like-your-goannabut I had to do it. The crispy fried pork strips from the heavens had to be omitted from my diet. Sure, I could have had a piece but the point value of one strip could be the value of an entire meal! I also learned that I was drinking a lot of unnecessary points with creamers, sodas, and coffee drinks. No, I haven’t given up coffee (that would be dangerous for all involved). I just made changes to what all I added. I tried a SmartOnes dinner. In the words of Crocodile Dundee, ‘Well, you can live on it, but it tastes like shit.’ I have one more in the freezer for emergency purposes but I’ve been preparing and cooking a lot of my own foods. I have found it easier to prep the night before and sometimes it could take up to an hour trying to figure out measurement and points. When I get really frustrated I’ll just throw a salad together and call it a day.

The Sceptic and Critic

My art room partner said, ‘The first 10lbs drop off really fast but after that it’s hard.’ WTF does she mean ‘it’s hard?’ THE WHOLE THING IS HARD! It’s easy to grab a bag of snacks and go or sit down at a restaurant and eat WHATEVER you like. I have to be conscious of what I eat to how it’s prepared! Add me having to cook dinner for my family on top of that! I want to slap her with my banana peel! Then one innocent bystander stepped in with, ‘Try the grapefruit diet. It worked for me.’ No offense EWW. I have a difficult time even smelling that fruit let alone ingesting it. Plus, I don’t care about what worked for you, this is something I’m doing for me and I’ll choose my type of punishment. Then I hear, ‘Are you sure you can eat that?’ as I dip my pretend chip (cauliflower) in my greek yogurt and ranch seasoning dip. You damn right I can! It’s the first taste of creaminess since I started this diet and I’m pleased to say that it reminds me of sour cream without the points! So, YES I’m going to eat it. Then I discovered food rage! This is where I didn’t prepare ahead of time and needed to marinate mushrooms for an hour, it was late in the evening, and I was HUNGRY. Everyone suffered my starving wrath and damn it I wanted pizza. In the end, it was OK.  For portion sizing just reference the regular handheld pizza cutter next to the pizza. Yeah. NOTE TO SELF: It doesn’t reheat well the next day.

In the end, I just need to believe that I can do it. I’m doing my walks but I realize I will need to add more but that’s when I’m ready. That’s a social anxiety I need to prepare for and is why I walk EARLY in the mornings.  I’ve also decided, my ‘Weighing in On Weighing In’ will be on Thursdays but times will be different from today since I had to take off work to watch my son. Schools out but not for the older ones yet and he’ll be bearhugging by last nerve most of the day. Also, when on a diet, ALL YOU DO IS THINK ABOUT FOOD. Well not all the time for me, I have some doodling, painting, writing, and emails to complete.

 

 

It’s All in the Details

This morning I was up and going for my walk before 5am. I was actually excited about that. But I was even more excited that I have points from yesterday (WW Freestyle does that) but was soon more angry than anything that it only rolls over 4, not 11! Coming from a chick that loves to cook southern food and eat it, I felt so cheated! But I will take my 4 thank you and make the best out of them.

The app allows me to scan foods and see what points they add up too. This includes meals, single ingredients, and even alcohol. My morning began with a morning walk and coffee afterward. I scoured their recipe app and found pancakes that I wanted to make. I didn’t have all the ingredients that were on the list but found substitutions that even lowered the meal points. In doing so I indulge in 1 point each of sugar-free syrup and no salt butter with olive oil. I add blueberries and let me tell you-YUM!!! It took me almost 30 minutes to figure out ingredients, substitutions, and calculating measurements but in the end, I had a great indulging breakfast and leftovers for me to just heat up in the morning.

After breakfast, I started researching on my idea, got bored, and completed my art challenges. I was relaxed and in the zone and the time just got away from me. I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted a Bloody Mary but know that there isn’t a bartender in my neck of the woods that would make one the way I needed (specific to my diet) let alone have the ingredients. With my husband in tow (it’s a holiday weekend and the liquor store was going to be busy), armed with my app, I was able to find a vodka that was only 2 points a serving. The mix was the difficult part. What I usually put in these drinks I couldn’t have but learned that Zing Zang mix was 1 point but that was only for 3 Fl Oz so I I doubled that using a total of 2 points. I added regular tomato juice to it (not a full serving) which was another point. In the end, my drink ended up being 5 freaking delicious points that I do not regret! I made myself some egg salad ( and again I didn’t have all the right ingredients and used substitutions) and after some searching and calcualtions, I had a filling 2 point lunch. Still not the same as what I usually make but I’ll take it.

After lunch, I thought I would try my hand at painting outside. It was up to 100° and the water was just drying the minute it hit the page. I did the next best thing and found a reference photo and went to town. I’m tickled at how well this turned out. I realized that today consisted mostly of me paying attention to the little things. All in all, a good day but what I would kill for a loaded baked tater with all the fixin’s! If you would like the recipe that includes the substitutions for what I did just let me know. Have a great night everyone!

May 24th, 2018

Journal confession time. I have been harboring a lot of guilt about a goal that I set and actually went the opposite direction. I wanted to lose at least 20lbs at the same time I quit smoking. I haven’t had a cigarette since January 12th but need to lose a LOT more weight. I’ve tried keto (didn’t satisfy) tried smaller portions (already do because of the gastric bypass) and a lot of other gimmick stuff. I realized that I’m happy with my ability to find time to paint and write but need to focus on my weight.

I took a walk this morning before work and writing and felt really bad about how I looked while doing it. How can I exercise when I feel anxious about people watching me and possibly secretly judging me. That’s the anxiety working in me and shaking hands with the depressive state that I fall in with. I could’ve easily gone home but reminded myself that it was still dark out and people are heading to work and are probably late. I walked fasted just to get home before the sun came all the way up. My daughter turned 16 today and I thought if I keep going the way I’m going I’m not going to be healthy enough to enjoy my kids anymore like I was before. So, part of getting healthy this year was to quit smoking and I think I nailed it. Now, it’s time to control and manage my eating and weight. This entails me going to the store after work, purchasing a weight scale, and possible leggings to walk-in.

I researched many options and due to my family’s strict budget I made the first step and signed up for Weight Watcher’s Freestyle program. Fingers crossed I’m able to figure out meals with what I have and will get what I need (portion size for one because my family eats regular foods without a care in the world) on my next grocery shopping trip. Speaking of grocery shopping with my C-PTSD and anxiety I learned that I can shop through Wal-Marts grocery app which will also help me from going through the aisles and shopping with, ‘Oh that would taste awesome’ mentality.

After joining (still needing to feel out a few profile fields), I saw where I can track what I eat. Banana, coffee with chocolate caramel creamer, a babybel cheese, salad with greek dressing and croutons all added up-QUICKLY. It was clear about my food choices and guilt turned to shame. I synched my Fitbit app to my Weight Watcher’s app, opted for water instead of V8 and only had 1/2 cup of spicy ranch popcorn. I will research tonight more recipes and things that I can change and do differently.

I feel better fessing up to my guilt and shame and I guess I’ll take my readers along with me. I’m still going to write, paint, and doodle just now I’ll do it hungry. Kidding, not hungry but mindful of what I put in my body.

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